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hidden gates could be found somewhere in space and time —wherever we see them or walk past them, choosing to open them and step through or not. The paths one decided not to take remain as parallel universes one will never know. Are your choices the right ones, or should you have taken a different path? The wheel of fortune guides us to our destination.
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performances, div. materials, between 5 to 15 min, 2026
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Butoh Performance (capitalist)
The world that surrounds us is capitalist. We are accustomed to it; it is what we refer to through our daily endeavors—our work, our leisure, and our interests. Yet, do we perhaps mean something other than wealth and expensive objects? Do we, in fact, mean people—getting to know them and learning to love them? Exchange and communication are not merely the glue that binds us, but the very essence of our existence; we want to be seen and to see, to become part of a community, and to perceive and understand every thought that exists within it. Cohesion is our paramount goal; for us, it defines the world that immediately surrounds us—a world that extends outward into infinity.
searose
The water lily is the plant with the highest mortality rate; if you swim in a lake with water lilies, the underwater intertwining foliage wraps itself around your feet and pulls you under, causing you to drown. This Butoh performance refers to drowning in desires and imaginings that are created and generate wishes. Japanese Butoh* performances are a dance of darkness; with white-painted bodies, a visual physical language is extracted and expression expanded. Originally conceived as a counterpoint to expanding Western capitalism, Butoh is sensitized to anti-capitalism. It delves into the depths of the individual body and psyche, uncovering hidden feelings and translating them into movement. It reflects the Japanese or Western individual and their intrinsic rootedness and connection to nature. Butoh is understood as a form of dialogue between the dancers and their environment, with the dance emerging from this situation and interaction. (see Butoh: https://atmos.earth/art-and-culture/the-dance-of-darkness-inside-the-world-of-japanese-butoh/ )
Here, the water lily serves not only as a symbol of death but simultaneously as a symbol of everything desirable within the capitalist world—a world that constantly generates desires that demand to be satisfied. We associate the communicative act of „belonging“ with material objects and the act of possessing them. In place of genuine exchange and communication, a moment of mere display takes precedence. Every identity is constructed from the sum of its desires and is not subjected to any deeper scrutiny. The performance constitutes an act of self-exploration; it exposes the structures lying beneath the surface, thereby bringing them to conscious awareness. Each individual’s identity is forged from a unique constellation of personal encounters and experiences. Misunderstandings, anguish or torment, love or empathy, and demands—all exert distinct influences on the personality and the self during one’s formative years. Those who themselves endure suffering inevitably perpetuate it. Instinctive cycles of unhappiness can be broken by engaging in a process of reflective examination—scrutinizing past experiences and the behavioral tendencies they have engendered. Negative experiences can be left behind—banished from the formative cycle of personality development—to make way exclusively for positive events that shape the self and determine one’s future. Self-reflection, Butoh, and meditation cultivate a happier human being.
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apple
Love apple
Apple of discord
Paradise apple
Applesauce
Apple juice
Apple MacBook Air
Golden apple
Adam’s apple
Apple of temptation
Apple pie
An apple is ubiquitous and, as a natural object, abundant in many forms. It embodies and appears in nature; as a symbol, it is highly significant and an object of desire, yet it also symbolizes natural vibrations. As a symbol, it embodies many situations in life and is the core of many meanings, a pivotal point, and yet merely a fruit on a tree that offers shade and protection. A natural occurrence that evokes memories of home and abundance, yet is found out in the rain, even for a homeless person who thus feigns forgetting their homelessness.
The tempting apple of paradise symbolizes our everyday desires, longings, and wishes, created externally by what we have heard and seen, as part of a community of communication, because our desires and longings do not originate solely from within ourselves. Like the apple, we are both a natural entity and something created, something symbolic. Meditation and self-discovery, a connection to nature, allow us to recognize and reflect upon ourselves, our desires, and our inclinations. The apple simultaneously symbolizes longing, a connection to nature, and self-discovery.
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Ketten
Mit meiner Butoh*Performance möchte ich einen performativen körperlichen Ausdruck dafür finden, wie sich von negativen Einflüssen aus der Vergangenheit, Ängsten, Qualen befreit werden kann. Sinnbildlich stehen Ketten für Zwänge und Repressionen, die das Selbst fesseln. Die ehemaligen Einflüsse beeinflussen das Selbst auch im hier und jetzt, obwohl sie in der Vergangenheit liegen und überstanden sind. Sie beeinflussen die Entscheidungen, die Bewegungen und Handlungen ohne dass es bewusst wird und müssen überwunden werden. Qualen und Zwänge werden von außen subjektiv zugeführt und sind zielgerichtet oder zufällig, sie sollen oder können das Selbst und die Handlungen der gequälten Person verändern und tun dies auch. Sie erzeugen Zweifel im eigenen Denken und Handeln und hemmen freie logische oder natürliche Denkströme. Das Selbst und die Selbstentfaltung sind somit verhemmt. Die zwangsweisen Situationen müssen ins Bewusstsein geholt, definiert und überwunden werden. Reflexion über die eigenen Erlebnisse in der Vergangenheit bringt ein neues umsichtiges, ausgeglicheneres, selbstbewussteres Selbst und damit ein freudigeres Leben, denn was man mitteilt erhält man auch selbst zurück.
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Chains
Through my Butoh* performance, I aim to find a performative physical expression for the process of liberating oneself from negative influences of the past—from fears and torment. Symbolically, chains represent the constraints and repressions that shackle the self. These past influences continue to affect the self in the here and now, even though they lie in the past and have ostensibly been overcome. They influence one’s decisions, movements, and actions—often without one’s conscious awareness—and must therefore be surmounted. Torment and constraints are imposed from the outside—subjectively perceived—and may be either targeted or accidental; they are intended to—or have the capacity to—alter the self and the actions of the tormented individual, and indeed, they do just that. They sow seeds of doubt regarding one’s own thoughts and actions, inhibiting the free flow of logical or natural thought. Consequently, the self—and the process of self-realization—become stifled. These coercive situations must be brought into conscious awareness, defined, and ultimately overcome. Reflecting upon one’s past experiences fosters the emergence of a new self—one that is more prudent, balanced, and self-assured—and, in turn, leads to a more joyful life; for what one gives out to the world is precisely what one receives back.
2. skin
The blue chakra (Vishuddha) is the throat chakra; it represents communication, truth, and self-expression. In Sanskrit, Vishuddha means „purification,“ pointing to the clarification of thoughts and words. It fosters authentic communication, active listening, self-confidence, and integrity. Its symbol is a sixteen-petaled blue lotus. As if shedding a constricting skin, we liberate ourselves from burdensome past experiences and negative influences, thereby finding our way back to our true selves. This process of self-liberation may unfold through either a meditative or a communicative path, creating space for new encounters. Communication facilitates the alignment of experiences and perspectives, as well as reintegration into social groups and communities. It can provide clarity regarding assumptions and serves, moreover, as the ultimate means of integrating oneself into existing communal structures. The purification of negative experiences feels akin to shedding a second skin—or breaking the chains that have held one captive in a stagnant, unfavorable position. Self-discovery and self-liberation are thus achieved through communicative exchange, yielding a deeply regenerative effect.
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